Sunday Funday!

We had a great weekend. I can't believe that it is already over. 

Yesterday we woke up late, and then my friend Sarah picked me up and we went shopping. I found some very cute shoes at Target and had a great time catching up! Then Hubs, Me & the Pup went to my Parent's house for a Final Four party at our neighbors. Good food, fun and more catching up. 

Today has been even more low key. Grocery shopping, hit up Home Goods for a new garbage can and now cleaning the house and watching t.v. I am watching Yes Man right now and I just LOVE this movie! 

"We've got a fainter in Head Removal"

I also gave the little puppy a bath today. Some of the pictures came up quite blurry - but they are still very very cute! 

Enjoy!

This is his "please no" face

"reallllly?!"

"I love you - please don't make me take a bath"

"Grrrr"

"I'm ready to come out now!"

Hahahaha. He hates taking a bath but he is very good while he is in there! 

Such a cute fur*baby we've got!

Fabulous Friday!

What is Fab this Friday?

- Smiling! I feel like today I finally had a few moments where I smiled without as heavy a heart as I have these past 3 weeks (Has it really been 3 weeks since we lost Maveric?)

- Brown Rice Pasta! This is a staple in our house. With my gluten free nutrition plan I really love Brown Rice Pasta. It is perfect or having spaghetti (with a turkey meat sauce) or just as a side with butter. The texture is really awesome and i even prefer it to 'real' spaghetti now! Mmmm mmmm good.

- Sleep! I worked a 17 hour day yesterday (got into bed at nearly 3 a.m.) and my boss was kind enough to let me stay home and just log in for the afternoon. I woke up at 11:30 a.m. and made my lunch, logged in to check emails and spent the day on the couch. 

Next week I will try to even add some pictures (feeling lazy tonight) - could be the off-schedule sleeping. 

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Why I Love April Fool's Day!

Because my husband proposed to me on this day four years ago!

It was the sweetest proposal (because it was our's and SO heartfelt) and he proposed with a fake ring that I was just NOT excited about (but I faked it really well in the meantime). 

Here are some pictures for you!

The Fake Ring

Reasons he knew I wouldn't like it:

- It was gold

- It had strange arrow gold shapes to it

- It wasn't anything like what I had sent him as ideas

Loved this day. And HIM!

Re-Entry Into the World

So. Today I went back to work 

(if you don't count the 1 day I went last week before the clotting and Cytotec)

I feel good that I am back into the groove of things, but at the same time, I feel like it's all so pointless. I don't have Maveric in my belly and so what else matters? I know that this is the grief talking and that things will get better, but I am just feeling so lost still. 

Originally, I wanted to wait till I had lost another 25 pounds to try again, but after thinking more and more about it, and Rob and I talking about it more and more; we decided that we would wait the two cycles and make the decision then. 

I just have these fears that if we wait too long,  and this keeps happening (dear God no) that we will miss out on our take*home baby. I understand this may be totally irrational, but I don't want to wait 6 months. I want to do my very best to lose weight and my very best to be a Mom. 

I am hoping and working towards both.

A-Ok

I had my two week follow up (well 11 days) post D&C and everything finally looks normal. 

It was awful though. I was put into a room waiting for my doctor to come in and all I could hear was pregnant women getting to hear their babies' heartbeats. 

I am happy that there were heartbeats to be heard but I also feel like it was just a slow form of torture. 

But now that I am ok physically, I am ready to truly mourn and move on emotionally. I thank you all for your help while I was recovering.

XoXoX